The past is a grotesque animal
And in its eyes you see
How completely wrong you can be
The sun is out, it melts the snow that fell yesterday
Makes you wonder why it bothered
I fell in love with the first cute girl that I met
Who could appreciate George Bataille
Standing at Swedish festival discussing the Story of the Eye
Its so embarrassing to need someone like I do you
How can I explain I need you here and not here too
Im flunking out
Im gone, Im just gone
But at least I author my own disaster
Performance breakdown and I dont want to hear it
Im just not available
Things could be different but theyre not
The mousy girl screams, Violence! Violence!
She gets hysterical because theyre both so mean
And its my favorite scene
But the crueltys so predictable, it makes you sad on the stage
Though our love project has so much potential
But its like we werent made for this world
Though I wouldnt really want to meet someone who was
Do I have to scream in your face?
Ive been dodging lamps and vegetables
Throw it all in my face, I dont care
Lets just have some fun, lets tear this shit apart
Lets tear the fucking house apart
Lets tear our fucking bodies apart
But lets just have some fun
Somehow youve red-rovered the gestapo circling my heart
And nothing can defeat you
No death, no ugly world
Youve lived so brightly
Youve altered everything
I find myself searching for old selves
While speeding forward through the plate glass of maturing cells
Ive played the unraveler, the parhelion
But even Apocalypse is fleeting
Theres no death, no ugly world
Sometimes I wonder if youre mythologizing me like I do you
We want our film to be beautiful, not realistic
Perceive me in the radiance of terror dreams
And you can betray me, but teach me something wonderful
Crown my head, crowd my head with your lilting effects
Project your fears on to me
I need to view them
See theres nothing to them
I promise you theres nothing to them
Im so touched by your goodness
You make me feel so criminal
How do you keep it together?
Im all, all unraveled
But you know, no matter where we are
Were always touching by underground wires
Ive explored you with the detachment of an analyst
But most nights weve raided the same kingdoms
And none of our secrets are physical now