So you think that I,
Should I be a man free of sin?
Ive done enough to prove,
That I am not capable of this!
Im not claiming that Im all that bad,
But Im not surprised Ive created distance from my past
Three-Hundred-And-Sixty-Five days ago!
I was a different man!
Watch my world caught on fire!
There has been a slight change of plan!
More liquor was poured,
Found out love is for whores!
White powder, allowed bad ideas to form!
All of this is consequence,
This year could be my last!
Maybe I am crazy,
How about a taste of my own private hell?
But either way I am,
Okay, Im alive today!
One day youll know the pain I feel!
But it wont take away this pain.
One day Im expecting to pay for
The things Ive done in this life.
Ive tried to take my time,
But it never turns out right.
I know its just a matter of time…
If only all of you,
Could see into my mind!
Then you would probably find
A boy whos barely clinging to life!
Maybe I am crazy,
I bought the ticket and I took the ride!
But either way I am,
Okay, Im alive today!
I wouldnt trade it for anyones life!
But it wont take away this pain.