Okay, calm down – now lets start breathing
The season just changed in your head Kel, youre freezing
The reason for pain and for shame and for training
Your brain in those ways was to study for leaving.
Leaving these years in a stain?
Wrapping your unbroken soul in a cast with a cane in your hand for support which you call education?
Blotting the clot that erupted, with patience
If you lose your mind now youll have more time to take it.
Dont fake it – youll leave your heart lonely and vacant.
Once again, Kelly Abe, youve infected my mind
Our spontaneous combustion will come in due time
But make no mistake – I dont fix whats not broken
I breathe air to your lungs when your passion is choking
And that cane – its me – and the soul its you
And that brain is me – and that goal is you
And when the times right, Ill take out the knife,
And rip out my own heart to give kelly abe life.
But till then drink the pain starve yourself – you need hunger
Cause that is the cancer thats festering under
My logic and reason- I hold it the closest
Each day is a meal for my birthing psychosis.
But Im breaking my bones waiting for your insanity!
Id kill you to kill this infectious calamity!
Smear blood on my chest over poet for vanity
And tattoo the date of your death somewhat lavishly
Over the date of our birth on our stomach
Plumetting down hells canal like a puppet
Muttering sounds of remorse serves my comfort
When you hit ground zero Ill bask in consumption
The scent of strength the vision of power
The feeling of happiness drowning my past
The taste of the absence of time – make the hour-glass mine – life is bliss – I would cry if I found her.
Well, thank god I have you, cause death is my dream
And Ill never meet life, though it hides in my sleeve
And Ill never think twice, but Ill always think three
And over-indulge in this sytems decree.
But look what Ive done to you – youre fcking unstoppable
The buring sensation of tormented logical
Processes, theories and queries were conjugal
Thank kelly kamen for writing your chronicle.
Thank kelly kamen for holding you back
Like a caged fckin beast thats been starved in a trap
Like a bolt of resentment that swelled in your belly
The birth of a renaissance machiavelli.
Im outside the cage – whats up bitch, throw down!
Id die by your hands just to throw you the crown.
Id cry in a blissful utopian pain
To only know us by the name Kelly Abe.