Tuesday
Dearest
I feel certain that I am going mad again
I feel we cant go through another of those terrible times
And I shant recover this time
I begin to hear voices
And I cant concentrate
So I am doing what seems the best thing to do
You have given me
The greatest possible happiness
You have been in every way all that anyone could be
I dont think two people could have been happier
Til this terrible disease came
I cant fight any longer
I know that I am spoiling your life
That without me you could work
And you will, I know
You see I cant even write this properly
I cant read
What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you
You have been entirely patient with me
And incredibly good
I want to say that
Everybody knows it
If anybody could have saved me
It would have been you
Everything has gone from me, but the certainty of your goodness
I cant go on spoiling your life any longer
I dont think two people could have been happier than we have been
V