Verse 1
Daddys got a new life now
A new daughter and a new male child
A new swagger wid some real style
New car new house brand new spouse
Little shitty dog named Pouts wid smile on his mouth
Well be straight up were forgotten cause developed a plan
Once the monkey takes some time to hang with his own fam
Hap and gay to let ya know he still cares and such
Ya wont grow apart too much from bein outta touch
But he wasnt there for him on the daily ghetto basis
In order to drop jewels I stay clear of the racists
Heavy promises became weightless
Sincerity became faintless
Hes praying for a Santa A-list
Time is passin by yet his scars remain ageless
He called him on the phone to say pops
Thisll take a minute of ya time
But his wishes were divined
By the disenchanted tone at the end of the line, hang up
He tried to look strong in front of mom back up
John stop lookin forward to the day you gonna see him on
Dry ya eye to eye and youll receive an embrace
From a lost heart thats pumpin blood up to a guilty face
Hes gonna try to find ways to make up for the last twenty nine days
Or was it thirty, I think he heard me
In situations like this ya speech becomes wordy
Hes got a hundred million ways to tell me not to worry
But this time I wasnt hangin on his every sentence
Ears crippled by the pain and negligence so was the tendence
He spoke I couldnt hear a word I zoned into black I observed
My only thoughts were missin out on love that I deserved
Tryin to convince myself Im weak within the mental
The silence breaks because your fathers guidance is essential
Hes lookin down with a smile sayin that the future will be great
I dont see that dad, but what about the now?
Johnny come and leave ya dad alone now
Yeh its just you and momma now
Stop the cryin now, just try to smile now
Try to think of other things now
Mommas got another date now
You can get through all the anger and the hate now
Calm down and wipe ya face now
I know it seems to be hard
But I promise you well make it through somehow
Scratching And now
Verse 2
Little girl their firstborn their sunshine
Never been a reader wrong get it right one time
Heres how it goes, shes off to school an dancin on her toes
At an hour long ballet class then on to the piano
Two hours of repetition, emulatin class with music compositions
Do your homework with precision
By nine-o-clock she collapses in a heat of dizziness
But sleep so tomorrow youll repeat ya busi-ness
She got straight As a stroke of her stress
Throughout her maydays but drawn up out the melees
Her mom and dad tryna blame each other different ways she stop and gaze
Thinkin how it drives her crazy when their voices raised
This the web that ruins most of her days
From her perfection was expected
An exec that workin hard without receivin any raise
At night she cries when she lays
Then she wakes up, washes up smiles and goes along like its okay
On to high school, theres more intensity within her cycle
Shes makin all the guys drool
Here comes the extra tight rules
No late, not with college on the plate
Practice hard, study hard stay in focus keep ya head straight
Now shes a nervouse wreck, lookin to collect
Anything that she can smoke swallow drink or inject
When she was mentally gone she went to the prom
Had dates and actually could sit down
Discuss relationships with her mom
But tell me how much pressure can a person take
Before they break and maybe crush this on a large enough escape
So one night she turned in but stayed up late
At her desk with a single piece of paper and a papermate
Heres mom a federal team waked at daybreak
What she saw made her knees shake the death of dear Kate
The note said heres the future of your fuckin perfect child
Please be proud Im livin for the now
Do your work, clean your room now
Take the makeup off your face now
Eat your dinner now, get off the phone now
Leave the boys alone now
Saturday night, you stayin home now
Go to your room and sit alone now
Katie with the needle how
Look baby momma needs you now
Breathe now, God why did this have to be now
Scratching of line And Now! until fade