Waking up at the crack of noon
Reminiscing of the times Im waking up with you
I should leave, sell my shit, make some kind of moves
Im lying to myself, I never leave this fucking room
I gotta pile of shit I havent addressed, head is a mess
Check the scrip bottles, see if any are left
Theres nothing,nowhere. but lets not even go there
Im lucky if I wake up, let alone care
Cause theres a fine line from who I am and who I wanna be
Im amazed at what I find when I look within honestly
Honestly, it feels like Im waiting to die
Watch the days pass by, whats it mean to be alive?
And Ive been killing time, going to bed with the sunrise
I got this feeling I wont make it to25
Its a far cry, know we all got hard times
But these long nights got me feeling like I wanna die
Leave my body by the liquor store
Im an asshole, let me die slow
Its too late for me, cant you fucking see?
I dug my own grave, let me fucking be
Leave my body by the liquor store
Im an asshole, let me die slow
Its too late for me, cant you fucking see?
I dug my own grave, let me fucking be
Dont even try to feed me all that life is what you make it
Pull up to your 9-to-5 and smile or try to fake it
But when youre in your bed alone I know you fucking face it
One day youll meet your maker and youll see your life was wasted
The reaper creeping slow, I know you see him when you dreaming
You posted at a party but hes in the dark scheming
And you keep telling me that life has some sort of meaning
So sorry if Im pessimistic but I dont believe it
Im a fuck up, motherfucker
Im sick of tryna find myself in others
Im sick of seeking love, Id rather suffer
Im sick of life, I put that on my mother
Yeah, Im a fuck up, motherfucker
I needed you, you left me in the gutter
The saddest part is that I really loved her
On a sinking ship, I wave as I go under
Leave my body by the liquor store
Im an asshole, let me die slow
Its too late for me, cant you fucking see
I dug my own grave, let me fucking be
Leave my body by the liquor store
Im an asshole, let me die slow
Its too late for me, cant you fucking see
I dug my own grave, let me fucking be
Im a fuck up, motherfucker
Im sick of tryna find myself in others
Im sick of seeking love, Id rather suffer
Im sick of life, I put that on my mother
Yeah, Im a fuck up, motherfucker
I needed you, you left me in the gutter
The saddest part is that I really loved her
On a sinking ship, I wave as I go under