My life hasnt been simple. Your experience aint new. Do you know what
Ive been through dealing with these Starz and Stripes? The pain that I
Witnessed. Through these eyes it seemed endless. Until God taught me
Forgiveness for these Starz and Stripes.
Vrs. 1
Picture this, a young man about yeah high. Too young to speak his mind
too afraid to die.
Im hoping he misses.
NOPE!
He caught me real good, one to the jaw. The force of it pushed the back of
My head through the wall.
I dont remember much after the fall. Just waking up wheezing its hard to
Breathe while being kicked down the hall.
All because of something so small, he couldve overlooked it but Nah… No
child deserves to be beat until hes raw.
He got creative with it. Fan belts that keep alternators spinning, would be
use to rip the flesh even through my denims.
I patch them up and wear them jeans the next day. Like thats the new
style, classmates be like Todd you wild.
If they could only feel the sting, see the terror of this dark era. Sworn to
Secrecy when teachers ask, I cant tellem.
Im too afraid of whats gonna happen to me. If child protectors dont take
me, he gon rock me to sleep.
And I dont want to see Jake police taking my Dad away. Then Ill be the
blame for breaking up my family? HE BEAT YALL TOO….
Vrs 2
Its hard to stand when them blows coming I can hear them vision blurry
eating flurries, nose running crimson.
Tide, to get the blood out my shirt. Body sore Charlie horse a splash of
water to regain conscience Im hurt .
Could this be the day Im leaving the earth for better for worst whichever
come first Im not ready
to meet Christ i see a light and Im top heavy. Feel like Im on Beat Street
getting rock steady
Step Mom try to intervene a back hand canceled her plans satan tried to
cancel ya mans.
Twist my conscience create in me the same monster, but I rebuke that!
And I refuse to use that
as my excuse to rebel speak foolish I choose to do it plain simple like
the 2 step.
The Lord God took my sins forgive me, so I forgive my dad for every
blow to the kidneys.
Every lash of the belt ever smash from the impact of the size 12 for ever
passionate yell.
Okay? beg scream cry for help he ignored while he was tagging me
I forgive him for not thinking rationally.
For assault battery choke holds grabbing me bear hugs till my center
folds like a magazine
God saved him God changed him thank you merciful savior!
God saved me God changed me man you must be crazy to think you cant
be set free….
Dad I wish I had the chance to just tell you.. Tell you I love you and I miss
you… and you were dead wrong for the way you abused me. JamesBut
I learned not to be bitter and find true forgiveness down in my heart again.
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